Feeling The Same

I've noticed today that I don't feel like I've changed at all, and it's bothering me on some weird level. A co-worker caught me today, one I haven't seen since early December, and she said I looked "slenderer," but I'm not feeling it. I've looked through old phone and Facebook pics, trying to find angles that kind of match, desperately eyeballing the pictures for a glimpse of this new, thinner "me" but she's just not shining through. And maybe it's the better fitting pants but same old sweater from years and years ago, or the weird bloated feeling like I just ate a huge meal, or trying to find a not-so-fat me among recent pictures, but today I don't feel like I've lost 42 pounds. I'm looking through success stories on MyFitnessPal, people of a similar height and weight, and they look just amazing - curvier, thinner, major before/after differences for weight losses around my total, and I kinda feel like "where's my before/after awesome pic?!" Maybe in another 10-15 pounds I'll notice a difference, other than in better fitting pants (cause I've not found any decent shirts!), but today I very much feel the same.