Reset Progress

For the most part, being on maintenance has been pretty smooth. I have no issues eating 2400 calories per day. In fact, on some days, I even eat into my exercise calories! I've tried to not feel guilty by reminding myself that a few hundred extra calories is not going to cause me to gain. I'm really not looking forward to going back down to 1800 or so though. 

My biggest issue has been eating clean. I haven't been eating complete junk, and maybe it's no more than usual but now that I am watching it seems like a bigger issue. Balancing macros is also really tricky. I'm almost always consistently over on carbs. It's almost like everything I eat has a bunch and by dinner, I'm over. I don't think it's a huge issue, especially if on strength days, but I would think it happening every day is something I should curb. 

I've also been slacking on exercise this week. A co-worker that I normally walk with every day decided to check out our gym. I was super excited since this means I won't have to worry about walking outside when it's 90 degrees out. This made me really excited at the prospect of doing strength training every other day like I should be doing. But then I feel guilty for leaving him on his own in a strange place. So, I walked instead. And then yesterday he pulled a muscle in his back and decided to take it easy, so I didn't go. I'm finding it really easy to just blow things off and that really worries me. 

So far this week, the scale has been a consistent 186-187 pounds, which is good. Eating more calories has also meant going over on sodium by a good bit every day, so I could in fact be around 185. I was almost hoping it would go down a little bit, just so I can see the scale move again! 

My big shock for the week was going shopping for a bathing suit! A month or two ago, I found a post from a lady giving away some of her clothing on a Reddit group. I was only expecting some shirts but she ended up mailing me a bathing suit and some other stuff as well. Since I'm still holding on to all of this belly fat, the top was a bit snug, so I decided to head out and buy another one. I'm a bit sad that the top I bought was a size 20 but I'm trying to remind myself of two things: 1) I bought it at Target, and from what I have experiences, their sizes ALWAYS run small; 2) the top is really loose in the stomach area and the 18 I tried on fit just fine. I also need to remember that I went shopping for a bathing suit! I've not swam in a pool in probably 12-13 years, and I've not worn a suit in about 9-10 years. Plus, 60 pounds ago, I probably would have been freaking out about having to buy a size 28. So, there are pluses! Thankfully, Old Navy just emailed me that all of theirs are on sale this weekend for 60% off, so I might save some money as well as find I fit into a smaller size. Going to be crossing my fingers (and toes!)