I have very mixed feelings about today's weigh-in. All week my weight has been up (thank you water weight) so I was honestly expecting to be higher than 203. Being even .2 pounds down was a huge shock! But at the same time, 200 feels like it's just miles away. I can see it, it's right there, just barely out of reach, but every time I reach for it, it moves a step back. So yeah, I'm happy I lost at all this week, and I'm looking forward to seeing the scale go down even more in the next couple days, but I'm getting anxious about hitting 200! Come on already!
Here is a monthly recap of pounds lost, so I can keep things in perspective. I've been really mad at myself for not even being close on this month's goal (196.5) so I need a reminder of how things have gone in the past.
August - 239.2 - 233.2 = 6 pounds lost
September - 233.2 - 227.8 = 5.4 pounds lost
October - 227.8 - 219.8 = 8 pounds lost
November - 219.8 - 212.0 = 7.8 pounds lost
December - 212.0 - 206.0 = 6 pounds lost
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Feeling The Same
I've noticed today that I don't feel like I've changed at all, and it's bothering me on some weird level. A co-worker caught me today, one I haven't seen since early December, and she said I looked "slenderer," but I'm not feeling it. I've looked through old phone and Facebook pics, trying to find angles that kind of match, desperately eyeballing the pictures for a glimpse of this new, thinner "me" but she's just not shining through. And maybe it's the better fitting pants but same old sweater from years and years ago, or the weird bloated feeling like I just ate a huge meal, or trying to find a not-so-fat me among recent pictures, but today I don't feel like I've lost 42 pounds. I'm looking through success stories on MyFitnessPal, people of a similar height and weight, and they look just amazing - curvier, thinner, major before/after differences for weight losses around my total, and I kinda feel like "where's my before/after awesome pic?!" Maybe in another 10-15 pounds I'll notice a difference, other than in better fitting pants (cause I've not found any decent shirts!), but today I very much feel the same.
203.0 - 78 pounds to go!
200 is getting so much closer! It feels really weird to see those numbers on the scale. I still don't think my brain has quite caught up. It doesn't help that we don't have full length mirrors in the house. I've also come to realize this is around the weight I was in my senior year of high school, but my body was shaped differently. I don't think I had quite the flabby gut that I do now, so I don't feel any different than I did at 245.
Here are the measurements from 12/4/11 and 1/1/12, just to compare at one month rather than from the start:
Neck: 14.5" / 14.25"
Bicep: 14.25" / 13.5"
Chest: 46.5" / 44.75"
Waist: 46.25" / 46.25"
Hips: 47.75" / 46.75"
Thigh: 23.25" / 23.25"
Calf: 16.75" / 16"
That brings the total to 17.5" lost since August 21, and 4.5" since last month!
Oh! I also learned that since the week of Thanksgiving, I have lost 11.6 pounds! I've seen so many people comment that they either maintained or gained that I cannot even express how thankful I feel that the holidays are now past and I didn't gain a single pound! For as anxious and freaked out as I was, I showed myself that I really could enjoy the holidays and all the wonderful food, but within moderation without feeling deprived. Best thing is, I have goodies in the freezer to last me until at least spring!
Here are the measurements from 12/4/11 and 1/1/12, just to compare at one month rather than from the start:
Neck: 14.5" / 14.25"
Bicep: 14.25" / 13.5"
Chest: 46.5" / 44.75"
Waist: 46.25" / 46.25"
Hips: 47.75" / 46.75"
Thigh: 23.25" / 23.25"
Calf: 16.75" / 16"
That brings the total to 17.5" lost since August 21, and 4.5" since last month!
Oh! I also learned that since the week of Thanksgiving, I have lost 11.6 pounds! I've seen so many people comment that they either maintained or gained that I cannot even express how thankful I feel that the holidays are now past and I didn't gain a single pound! For as anxious and freaked out as I was, I showed myself that I really could enjoy the holidays and all the wonderful food, but within moderation without feeling deprived. Best thing is, I have goodies in the freezer to last me until at least spring!
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
206.0 - 81 pounds to go!
The 200 mark is looming in sight! The closer I get to it, the more impatient I become!
For the holiday get together at my parents house, I wore my size "20" jeans from Target. I say "20" because they are the same width as some 18's I have bought, but they fight a lot tighter. I was proud to finally be able to zip them and wear them, but they were uncomfortable really fast. I just bought some a pair of 18's and 16's from Old Navy yesterday while on a shopping spree with my niece and the 18's fit perfectly! It was a very strange feeling to enjoy clothes shopping, though it ended quickly as we went into more stores and the large variance in sizes started showing up. I'm still proud of the new clothes I bought and can wear, but it would be nice if all of the store sizes were universal.
I did really well at both of our holiday parties this last weekend, though I went way over on sodium both days and I think that skewed my weigh-in a bit. I am so sick of sodium I could scream. I know if the scale reads higher due to excess water from too much salt that it's just going to come off, but I hate messing up a weekly weigh-in because of it. I also got through packaging up all of the truffles and cookies for people without sampling more than a truffle (and considering how heavenly they are, that's impressive!)
For my own future reference, here is a list of everything I made this year:
Chocolate chocolate-chunk muffins
No bake cookies
Oatmeal peanut butter chocolate chunk cookies
Mint chocolate chip cookies
Double chocolate cookies
Peanut butter blossoms
Cherry chocolate blossoms
Chocolate mint blossoms
Chocolate thumbprint cookies
Peanut butter cup cookies
Coconut macaroons
Oatmeal scotchies
Classic shortbread cookies
Rolo pretzel bites
Peanut butter M&M pretzel bites
Hockey pucks (Ritz cookies)
Peppermint bark
Oreo truffles
Mint oreo truffles
Peanut butter pretzel truffles
Coconut truffles (Mounds)
Butterfinger truffles
For the holiday get together at my parents house, I wore my size "20" jeans from Target. I say "20" because they are the same width as some 18's I have bought, but they fight a lot tighter. I was proud to finally be able to zip them and wear them, but they were uncomfortable really fast. I just bought some a pair of 18's and 16's from Old Navy yesterday while on a shopping spree with my niece and the 18's fit perfectly! It was a very strange feeling to enjoy clothes shopping, though it ended quickly as we went into more stores and the large variance in sizes started showing up. I'm still proud of the new clothes I bought and can wear, but it would be nice if all of the store sizes were universal.
I did really well at both of our holiday parties this last weekend, though I went way over on sodium both days and I think that skewed my weigh-in a bit. I am so sick of sodium I could scream. I know if the scale reads higher due to excess water from too much salt that it's just going to come off, but I hate messing up a weekly weigh-in because of it. I also got through packaging up all of the truffles and cookies for people without sampling more than a truffle (and considering how heavenly they are, that's impressive!)
For my own future reference, here is a list of everything I made this year:
Chocolate chocolate-chunk muffins
No bake cookies
Oatmeal peanut butter chocolate chunk cookies
Mint chocolate chip cookies
Double chocolate cookies
Peanut butter blossoms
Cherry chocolate blossoms
Chocolate mint blossoms
Chocolate thumbprint cookies
Peanut butter cup cookies
Coconut macaroons
Oatmeal scotchies
Classic shortbread cookies
Rolo pretzel bites
Peanut butter M&M pretzel bites
Hockey pucks (Ritz cookies)
Peppermint bark
Oreo truffles
Mint oreo truffles
Peanut butter pretzel truffles
Coconut truffles (Mounds)
Butterfinger truffles
Sunday, December 18, 2011
207.4 - 82.4 pounds to go!
Completely forgot to post my weigh-in with all the hustle and bustle for the upcoming holiday. I normally post while at work, but with the looming winter close down, everyone is feeling lazy and chatty. At this point, we've made it through most of our holiday parties and have managed to lose weight after all of them, which is wonderful! Now to just finish my baking frenzy and get through packaging all the goodies without sampling too many!
Monday, December 12, 2011
209.8 - 84.8 pounds to go!
I'd love to say I'm officially out of the 210's, but next weigh-in is the one that I know will go up a pound, so I don't want to get too excited just yet. But, I could not have been any more happy that the scale moved for yesterday's weigh-in, especially since this last weekend was my in-law's holiday get-together. We were really bad on our sodium all week, especially while out of town, and Friday was basically a grazing day with all the holiday food, so I was kind of expecting the worst. I also ate quite a few cookies on two different nights last week. For as many as I was baking, I could have done a lot worse I guess. I was doing really, really well in the beginning but I think I was hungry both times I sampled a few too many. And now I have a bunch of cookies for me thanks to the cookie swap and gifts from the in-laws. Thankfully they are all frozen, so I can eat them very sparingly over the next few months!
Our trip to see the husband's family went really well and several people commented about how good we look, which is so nice to hear when you feel like there is no difference. I know the scale is moving, so I am sure there are changes, but it's hard to tell. But, I went to Kohl's while we were visiting and I bought two new pairs of pants in a size 18! I was pleasantly shocked since the pair of 20's from Target still barely fit. When I compared the two, the 18's are actually about an inch smaller. Go figure. Either way, I'm looking forward to watching them become loose!
Last week I saw my doctor to get a yearly review of how things have been going. She didn't really do a review unfortunately, and according to their scale, I had only lost 1 more pound since seeing her in November. According to my info, I lost 4, but either way it left much to be desired. I mentioned to her that I gained like I always do around the middle of the month and then gained again 2 weeks later but her response was less than stellar: "now that you've lost a bit, you'll probably slow down to 1-2 pounds per month." In my opinion, that just doesn't seem right: 35 pounds down with 85 to go and I'm going to slow down?! Not if I can help it! I can see if I only had 30 to go, but not 85!
I have three more holiday parties to get through, one of which is mine and the other might not have much food, so I'm in the home stretch! Here's hoping I can get back to losing 2 pounds a week!
Our trip to see the husband's family went really well and several people commented about how good we look, which is so nice to hear when you feel like there is no difference. I know the scale is moving, so I am sure there are changes, but it's hard to tell. But, I went to Kohl's while we were visiting and I bought two new pairs of pants in a size 18! I was pleasantly shocked since the pair of 20's from Target still barely fit. When I compared the two, the 18's are actually about an inch smaller. Go figure. Either way, I'm looking forward to watching them become loose!
Last week I saw my doctor to get a yearly review of how things have been going. She didn't really do a review unfortunately, and according to their scale, I had only lost 1 more pound since seeing her in November. According to my info, I lost 4, but either way it left much to be desired. I mentioned to her that I gained like I always do around the middle of the month and then gained again 2 weeks later but her response was less than stellar: "now that you've lost a bit, you'll probably slow down to 1-2 pounds per month." In my opinion, that just doesn't seem right: 35 pounds down with 85 to go and I'm going to slow down?! Not if I can help it! I can see if I only had 30 to go, but not 85!
I have three more holiday parties to get through, one of which is mine and the other might not have much food, so I'm in the home stretch! Here's hoping I can get back to losing 2 pounds a week!
Monday, December 5, 2011
212.4 - 87.4 pounds to go!
These last few weigh-ins have been really frustrating. The husband also gained about half a pound this week, so maybe it's increased muscle from the balance class we took early Friday? I really have no idea how long it takes for muscle to build. It's just odd that he and I gain and lose together (minus the ~1 pound gain I have everything month) which leads me to believe it's not overeating. We both eat different things for the most part, and we both vary everyday on whether or not we are over or under by a little bit. So the only reason I can come up with for weeks like this is sodium, muscle gain, or gremlins. Whatever it is though, I'd like it to go away! I had high hopes of hitting 200 on New Year's Day and I think after hovering around 212-213 for 3 weeks, it's pretty much not going to happen.
As I mentioned above, we did a sample balance class on Friday morning. We were the only two in the class, which may have been a good thing. It was a mix of things like squats and should-tap pushups with Bosu ball exercises. I'm still pretty sore even today in the upper chest and lower abs, but it's nothing compared to the last class we tried! I'm really hoping they schedule this class a little later than the sample (8 am!) so that we can take it every week! If the scale is going to be mean and not move, I at least want to tone up some more.
Yesterday was also measurements and photo day. I finally noticed some differences in my photos. One of the rolls on my back (god, that's awful to type) is smoothing out and my upper arms don't look like cottage cheese anymore. I also take a picture wearing a pair of size 20 jeans from Target and an XL shirt and I noticed the gap between the button and clasp is slowly getting smaller! I was able to get them on one day last week by laying down on the bed and they didn't feel too bad once I stood up, but I figured I would wait until I can properly button and zip them. Compared to a couple months ago, I've only got about an inch to go!
Here are the measurements from 8/21/11 and 12/4/11:
Neck: 16" / 14.5"
Bicep: 15" / 14.25"
Chest: 49" / 46.5"
Waist: 49" / 46.25"
Hips: 50" / 47.75"
Thigh: 26" / 23.25
Calf: 17.25" / 16.75
That's a total of 13" since August 21 and 4" more than the last measurement tally!
As I mentioned above, we did a sample balance class on Friday morning. We were the only two in the class, which may have been a good thing. It was a mix of things like squats and should-tap pushups with Bosu ball exercises. I'm still pretty sore even today in the upper chest and lower abs, but it's nothing compared to the last class we tried! I'm really hoping they schedule this class a little later than the sample (8 am!) so that we can take it every week! If the scale is going to be mean and not move, I at least want to tone up some more.
Yesterday was also measurements and photo day. I finally noticed some differences in my photos. One of the rolls on my back (god, that's awful to type) is smoothing out and my upper arms don't look like cottage cheese anymore. I also take a picture wearing a pair of size 20 jeans from Target and an XL shirt and I noticed the gap between the button and clasp is slowly getting smaller! I was able to get them on one day last week by laying down on the bed and they didn't feel too bad once I stood up, but I figured I would wait until I can properly button and zip them. Compared to a couple months ago, I've only got about an inch to go!
Here are the measurements from 8/21/11 and 12/4/11:
Neck: 16" / 14.5"
Bicep: 15" / 14.25"
Chest: 49" / 46.5"
Waist: 49" / 46.25"
Hips: 50" / 47.75"
Thigh: 26" / 23.25
Calf: 17.25" / 16.75
That's a total of 13" since August 21 and 4" more than the last measurement tally!
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