190.4 - 65.4 pounds to go

So Sunday's weigh-in was a cheat weigh-in again. We were visiting family 4 hours away and didn't have access to a scale, so I used Friday's number. We ate really, really bad all weekend: lots of fattening, greasy, fried food and way too much sodium. I was definitely feeling it come Sunday and just felt rather gross. The scale this morning was up 3.5 pounds or so from Friday so I am hoping to flush out the extra sodium over the next couple days and see that number return.


Today, I am really, really feeling discouraged. I am part of a group on MyFitnessPal that is all about eating to lose weight. The group organizer has done tons of research and freely gives the info to anyone interested so that they can educate themselves and see his sources of information. Last week or so, I had used his information to calculate my BMR and TDEE. Following his directions to the letter, it proposed that I eat 1634 calories + exercise calories, or 1850 calories no matter what. I was thrilled to set my daily amount to 1850 after how hungry I've been lately. I had asked him to run my numbers just in case I was incorrect and this weekend he finally got around to it. His advice is the following:


BMR 1247 
TDEE 1932 
Set MFP to 1546 daily 
Protein and Fats 30% each If you have no fat movement in 2 weeks adjust Protein up and carbs down.


For some reason, seeing 1546, which is 100 lower than what I was previously, just depresses me. For one, I was eating around that and constantly hungry. Second, I've been eating 300 more than that for about a week, which had me feeling more full but I was also not really losing much of anything.


And that's the thing about weight-loss: everyone has different advice and there's really no way of knowing who is correct! My nutritionist doesn't like counting calories but rather prefers that I eat healthy. Lots of people agree with this, but also feel that a calorie amount is needed to create a deficit. Still others point to the fact that a deficit is a deficit, even if you eat junk. People like myself that want to know all of the why's and how-come's are left confused. 


I'm really just hoping something works to kick-start things again. The last couple weigh-ins have been good, but before that it was beginning to go down one week and stay steady for a couple weeks. The one year mark is closing in, and while I realize I won't hit the 100 pound mark like I wanted, I'd at least like to hit 80. 


**Edit: I finally figured out, with the help of some searching and a MyFitnessPal friend, how the group organizer got a different number. The Fat2Fit BMR calculator uses goal weight in it's calculation, so in a sense, you are eating like the thinner person you want to become. The organizer runs the numbers on a separate calculator using current weight as a goal weight and then just cuts 20% from TDEE. This method calls for less calories and has to be recalculated every 10 or so pounds. So, all is better now. I need to just learn to breathe.